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Mike Sowden's avatar

Woolf was so wise. I've always been wary of the myth of the struggling artist - that to create Great Things, you must suffer Unimaginable Misery.

Say, Orwell living in poverty and squalor in France and England, which allegedly turned him into the writer that banged out "Animal Farm" and "1984", plus the autobiographical "Down And Out In Paris In England."

But the thing is: he didn't write any of those things *at the time*. He wrote those books later. And I'm not even sure this example counts at all, because he was making a deliberate attempt to learn about life on the poverty line first-hand, so he could write about it. He wasn't trying to escape his privation, he was leaning into it as much as he could bear...

Anyway, every time I hear about the Struggling Artist myth stories, I want to look really hard at them - and when I do, I usually find the Actual Writing didn't happen at the time, and it wasn't quite as simple as "those terrible times forged them into the amazing writers they later became [so you young folk need to get out there and suffer if you want to get really good]".

I also have a personal example to fall back on. From 2015 onwards, I all but lost my ability to write, because of immense stress due to family stuff. It wasn't like I could use writing to escape from what was going on - it was, there was nothing in my tank to start with. It was all gone, all driven out by the incredible pressure. And it took me years, and much happier circumstances, before all that voice I wanted to write with started to come back. But at the time, I thought I was done, end of career. (One Substack newsletter later, I'm starting to think otherwise.)

So yes, absolutely yes to what Woolf said. As writers, we're seedlings sprouting new shoots and growing towards the light. So what we need at that time is enough light, enough water, and enough rich soil for our roots. Translated into human experience: we need whatever 'Enough' is for us to keep going without breaking apart.

(This is also why I totally respect writers who don't "quit their cubicle hell to live the dream" as the aspiratonal Instaquotes go, and instead spend a while working part-time, using that security as a platform to build their foundational work.)

But everyone's Enough should look a bit different. We are all unique casseroles of talent, enthusiasm and grit, so the weirder our Enough looks to someone else, the better, I reckon...

Anyway. I'm rambling. As always, you said it perfectly, Ali.

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Lou's avatar

As always, a thoughtful and thought-provoking piece, Ali - it really resonated. Coincidently, just this week I kept turning the phrase 'a room of one's own' over in my head. I am trying to create just that in my small home so I have a space to work and write that feels solely mine. No matter how small or simple, even if it is the same table in a coffee shop, I really believe everyone needs somewhere they can be alone in their thoughts. Probably why I love baths so much!

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